Mother Admits She Doesn't Love Her Daughter
Filed under: Just For Moms, Health & Safety: Babies, Playground Bureau
Shelley Price doesn't love her own daughter, and fears she never will. This tearful mother of two is telling her story because she believes that she isn't the only mother to ever tackle such a taboo subject, and hopes she may help others come to terms with this unspeakable truth. How can this be?
(Update: The story that originally ran on dailymail.co.uk on January 22, 2009 was pulled off the site the following day. Read on and you'll see why.)
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Price was just 22 when she had her eldest daughter, Catherine, now 11. Shortly after Catherine's birth, a five-year relationship with the father fizzled. That didn't help matters.
"It was obvious that something wasn't right from the start," said Price. The night Catherine was born, Price says she didn't want to look or touch her. Her maternal malfeasance continues to this day. Playgroup pickup was something to dread, she recalls no landmarks such as a first tooth and when Catherine is sick, Grandma is called in. She admits to ignoring her daughter's attempts to get her attention and not wanting to be physically close to her. "I did hug Catherine, but it was always half-hearted," Price said. "I always told her I loved her but I never really felt it or meant it."
That is just awful. Particulary when there is another child in the house now, Poppy, 2, a daughter who she calls "the love of my life" by her current partner.
I can understand how at times we might not like our children, say, when they break stuff or hit their sister. But that doesn't mean we don't love them. Also, many new moms, myself included, feel overwhelmed with the responsibility of a new baby. Coupled with the baby blues or postpartum depression, it's often very hard to bond.
I have a friend who admitted to me she wasn't immediately bowled over by her son when she first had him. Many moms go through that. But as time went on, she grew to love her son more than life itself. That's how you should feel when you have a child, right? Isn't loving our children -- whether it's at first sight or through time -- part of what makes us human?
Psychologists say that a mother's failure to love her child can result from depression, feelings of inadequacy or when the child reminds her of a bad relationship (i.e., the co-parent). Price fits neatly here, although she says not so.
On the plus side, if there is one, Price recognizes her shortcomings and is trying hard to improve her relationship with her older daughter. "Sometimes, if I've been playing with Poppy, she'll come and sit next to me, put her head on my shoulder and her arm round me, waiting for me to cuddle her," she said. "I look at her little face and know I've hurt her. I do care deeply for Catherine, but I have just never felt the same bond with her."
Instead of a good night kiss and "I love you, honey," Catherine hears a nightly whisper in her ear. "I'm sorry for the way I've been with you." Isn't your heart breaking?
Can you relate to Price? Do you feel like you don't love your children enough, or at all?
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ReaderComments (Page 2 of 62)
1-23-2009 @ 9:50AM
MykidsMommy said...I just do not understand why she did not place this child for adoption. If the initial feeling did not go away within the first year (or 2, or 3) she could have found this child a LOVING home with parents that WANTED her. My heart aches for this poor child, and for the pain she must feel now and will experience when she brings children into the world and feels the "falling in love with your child" love that she never received. Shame on this mother for not only being selfish enough to admit to the world that she doesn't love her but for denying her daughter a loving family to begin with.
1-23-2009 @ 9:52AM
Lori Barnett said...Interesting....the article has been removed. Hopefully, someone came to their senses and realized the damage this story "in print" could ultimately cause. Now, I only hope someone comes to the rescue of this poor child and gives her the love she so deserves.
1-23-2009 @ 9:54AM
Cristina said...Wow -- what a sad situation all the way around. That little girl is going to have some serious emotional issues as an adult if the mom can't dig deep enough to give her some genuine, heartfelt love. I hope the mom gets some counseling, or spiritual guidance NOW. That little girl deserves to be nurtured and valued by her mom.
1-23-2009 @ 9:54AM
Megan said...I am expecting my first child on March 1st. I have read a lot of articles in magazines regarding this issue. I feel bad for the mother. It scares me, because the doctors say that some women instantly bond and some take time or never do. I think this has more to do with the person than anything with the child. I think it takes courage for this woman to admit to her shortcummings and recognizes that it is her and not the daughter's fault. To all those people who judge the mother and say she is not human... maybe they need to remember that until they walk someone else's shoes they are in no position to say anything. Who are we to judge someone if we've never had the same experience. The Human mind is an enigma with how and why it processes the way it does. We should commend this mother for being honest and trying not to take it out on her daughter, unlike some mothers we are seeing who are murdering their children.
1-23-2009 @ 10:00AM
Camanche said...Yeah, she is sick!!! And the nerves to have another child. People need to stop!! This child deserves to be loved, she didnt ask to come here. The balls of this lady. I'd like to kick her a$$ to sleep.
1-24-2009 @ 8:49PM
chances84 said...I think that not loving a child with all your heart is hurtful. You can't blame the child for your bad relationship with the father. She needs to wake up to reality, and love her child unconditionly. You never know when they may be taken away from you.
1-23-2009 @ 11:28AM
imfuzed said...The problem with taking the child away now is that she will remember (she's 11, folks!) her mother that didn't love her. She will grow up with the knowledge that her mom didn't want to have any relationship with her and sent her away...and not her little sister. She would be resentful to anyone that tried to take the place of the mom she really wants. I'm not saying that not loving you child isn't right but at least she is trying. I know, my mom hated me and loved my older and younger brothers. she sent me away. what i wouldn't give for my mother to at least have tried to love me or even just told me once that she did.
1-23-2009 @ 10:22AM
mommyof2 said...That is so sad. I have two boys that I love more then ANY thing in the whole world. I can't understand how you can look at that little face and not see everything that matters in there. I have always want to have a 3rd and prayed that it would be a little girl but that was not to be. Sadly maybe that mother doesnt understand that there are wonderful people that would love to take that little girl under their wing and really love her and treat her like she is special. She should give her up to a family that would love her and treat her like she should be treated. Just because you can have a kid doesnt make you a good mom . Stop thinking of yourself and for once think of your daughter!
1-23-2009 @ 3:49PM
drina0518 said...I cant relate to mother but the child she get older. this artical describe my mother
1-23-2009 @ 10:49AM
aprilpetty001 said...How could she have lived with this baby girl for 11 years, and claim not to love her. Selfish, stupid, irresponsible. She never deserved to have another child....had she given the first child up after she realized she didn't love her, maybe. She needs some serious help and should have gotten it alot sooner. I hope her daughter reads this, when she is old enough to be out of her B***h's house and can understand that it was not her fault and she is a blessing in her own way.. Maybe she will even go on to adopt a few that have mothers like hers and can feel like she is giving them the kind of love and getting the kind of love she has always been deprived of. Poor girl! I have 6 children, sometimes I don't like them...but ALWAYS I love them no matter what they say or do or how they act. We were given children to teach and show how to be the best they can. This poor littl egirl may be doomed!
1-23-2009 @ 7:31PM
Marisa said...Right, how proud she is going to feel after reading this article in the future or when someone reminds her of the depths of emotion, her mother had for her. It sounds like to me that she is transferring the pain and disappointment she felt for the father on her daughter. How selfish!!
1-23-2009 @ 10:54AM
Mary said...Being the mother of six grown 'kids'; there have been many times in life that I get upset by their behavior...especially with one who is on drugs. However, I would give up my life for any one of them. To me, despite any downfalls they may have; they are a gift from God and I LOVE each and every one of them very very much. How can a true mother not feel the same way? Open your heart to your children, parents. Give them the love they truly need. Too many kids grow up to be troublesome adults due to lack of attention and love from their parents. If you can't love them, then give them to someone who will.
1-23-2009 @ 11:12AM
Beth said...I can't understand how a mother can say she doesn't love her daughter. My mother grew up like this and I can't begin to count the problems she has had and still does have with regards to this!!! She, however made sure that I felt loved and was the most important thing in her life! How could this mother put this crap out on the internet for everyone to see? How is this little girl going to feel, knowing this. I'm not a parent but I don't understand this!!!!
1-23-2009 @ 11:33AM
JAN said...THIS WOMAN IS A SICKO! HER CHILD DESERVES BETTER!
1-23-2009 @ 11:14AM
Leigh Smith said...OMG! I feel SO sorry for this child. Please lady, get some help and find this child a loving environment to live in. I'm like the others....I'll take her.
1-23-2009 @ 1:43PM
concerned said...It is good that the mother can notice and admit her problem but just trying to not feel that way is not enough. Why hasn't she gotten SERIOUS help. It's horrible that she doesn't love this child but for heaven sakes if you're going to announce it to the world would you not have tried to do MORE about it over the past 11 years of this childs life. I do this this mother fits in the catagory that she is distance from this child due to the bad relationship this child was produced from but it's not the little girls fault. The mother chose the man she had this child too and if she felt that distant from the child from the get go she should have been doing something to get help along time ago so this poor child doesn't suffer the consequences of feeling less of person to now another sibling that is loved. My girls are like night and day but I love them both dearly and would go to the ends of the earth for both of them even though the one has more of the same personally as me. I still love them BOTH!!!!
1-23-2009 @ 11:37AM
ari pagola said...Dear "mother" go to a psychiatrist RUSH, you need therapy and medication. And poor Catherine, God ...Bless her and I send her all my love.
1-23-2009 @ 11:39AM
penny said...and we wonder why some of our children end up going crasy and hurtin there folks.
1-23-2009 @ 12:11PM
be said...Oh my gosh I agree, The continuing pain that this mother is causing is so sad. This child needs protection TODAY!
1-24-2009 @ 5:06PM
valwil said...I do not agree with the way this mother is dealing with her shortcoming, but I think there should be a professional organization designed to handle issues like this...maybe poor Kaylee would still be alive if her mother had a safe palce to turn to where she could admit her true feeling and either work through them or give up her child to be adopted by loving caring individuals. We have to begin to recognize that peole are hurting for numerous reasons and stop judging them and reach to help them!