Mother Admits She Doesn't Love Her Daughter
Filed under: Just For Moms, Health & Safety: Babies, Playground Bureau
Shelley Price doesn't love her own daughter, and fears she never will. This tearful mother of two is telling her story because she believes that she isn't the only mother to ever tackle such a taboo subject, and hopes she may help others come to terms with this unspeakable truth. How can this be?
(Update: The story that originally ran on dailymail.co.uk on January 22, 2009 was pulled off the site the following day. Read on and you'll see why.)
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Price was just 22 when she had her eldest daughter, Catherine, now 11. Shortly after Catherine's birth, a five-year relationship with the father fizzled. That didn't help matters.
"It was obvious that something wasn't right from the start," said Price. The night Catherine was born, Price says she didn't want to look or touch her. Her maternal malfeasance continues to this day. Playgroup pickup was something to dread, she recalls no landmarks such as a first tooth and when Catherine is sick, Grandma is called in. She admits to ignoring her daughter's attempts to get her attention and not wanting to be physically close to her. "I did hug Catherine, but it was always half-hearted," Price said. "I always told her I loved her but I never really felt it or meant it."
That is just awful. Particulary when there is another child in the house now, Poppy, 2, a daughter who she calls "the love of my life" by her current partner.
I can understand how at times we might not like our children, say, when they break stuff or hit their sister. But that doesn't mean we don't love them. Also, many new moms, myself included, feel overwhelmed with the responsibility of a new baby. Coupled with the baby blues or postpartum depression, it's often very hard to bond.
I have a friend who admitted to me she wasn't immediately bowled over by her son when she first had him. Many moms go through that. But as time went on, she grew to love her son more than life itself. That's how you should feel when you have a child, right? Isn't loving our children -- whether it's at first sight or through time -- part of what makes us human?
Psychologists say that a mother's failure to love her child can result from depression, feelings of inadequacy or when the child reminds her of a bad relationship (i.e., the co-parent). Price fits neatly here, although she says not so.
On the plus side, if there is one, Price recognizes her shortcomings and is trying hard to improve her relationship with her older daughter. "Sometimes, if I've been playing with Poppy, she'll come and sit next to me, put her head on my shoulder and her arm round me, waiting for me to cuddle her," she said. "I look at her little face and know I've hurt her. I do care deeply for Catherine, but I have just never felt the same bond with her."
Instead of a good night kiss and "I love you, honey," Catherine hears a nightly whisper in her ear. "I'm sorry for the way I've been with you." Isn't your heart breaking?
Can you relate to Price? Do you feel like you don't love your children enough, or at all?











ReaderComments (Page 3 of 62)
1-23-2009 @ 12:00PM
tamara garcia said...This woman reminds me of Casey Anthony, a sociopath who only loves what others can do to feed her own ego. Case and point --- this article "Aren't I great for paving the path for others..." Being mentally ill is one thing, knowing you're an evil, hurtful parent and not putting this beautiful child in a loving home is something else altogether. She should absolutely lose not one, but both children.
1-23-2009 @ 12:02PM
Clair Ballard said...With my 1st born it was very hard. It took about a month to bond with him. I felt bad about that. I felt it should have instant, but it wasn't. 2 yrs later with my dtr it was easier but it still wasn't instant. They were both C-sections. Maybe that had something to do with it. I could also see where a bad relationship might effect feelings toward the "reminder". I love both my kids & I'm different with each of them according to their personality.
1-23-2009 @ 12:01PM
rsypsy said...I have two children, by two different fathers. One was my highschool sweetheart and I loved over many years. We both married others and got together after divorce. My point is, BOTH my children are the two most lovely people in the world. IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT 'MAN' BEGOT THESE CHILDREN. It only matters that GOD blessed me to be a MOTHER. I know when my 16yr old daughter was just 11 her dad caused her some humiliation and discomfort by telling her (along with his 4th wife) that they hated her because she "was turning into her moma as she grew older." My daughter no longer sees her dad, because she had a choice. I saw to it in court. She had a voice. HE IS THE ONE THAT MISSED OUT. Just like this woman is the one that cannot possibly be human. Is she related to Casey Anthony? Are the people behind this just trying to "set up a defense" that some children "can't" be loved by their parent? BULL@#$%. If you don't love your spouse, you get rid of them thru courts, do the same FOR this child and get her a parent that CAN AND DOES KNOW THE MEANING OF REAL LOVE! THIS IS ALL JUST MORE OF THE SICKNESS IN THIS WORLD, THAT ANYONE WOULD EVEN WRITE THIS ARTICLE, AND USE NAMES..SICK!
1-23-2009 @ 12:16PM
onlyshal said...I had postpartum depression after the birth of my 2nd child (daughter) and had a hard time developing a bond and "loving" her, but everyday I would put on a smile for her and "love" her (hugs, kisses, tickles, I love you's and all) despite how I felt inside. Thankfully the depression past and I am able to love her as I love all my children. Perhaps just going through the motions and not letting the depression beat me led the way for our bond later.
I think no matter what as a parent, despite how you feel inside, you should never let that affect your kids in a negative way.
So I would say to this mom....it doesn't matter what you feel, this is a child, your child and you have a responsibility. If you don't "love" her, never let her know that, and do what ever it takes to make her feel loved (even if it feels fake to you at the moment). Also remember we don't just fall into love, we choose who we love, so choose to love your daughter, if for nothing but her sake.
1-23-2009 @ 12:32PM
Confused said...Who are any of you to pass judgement on a woman who is obviously sharing her inner most secret with the world? Grandted,one should not tell secrets if one wishes to avoid criticism and judgement, but this lady believes she may help others with the same problem by telling the world. She did not WANT this, it just happened. I am 24 and have no children so obviously I have no experience "loving" a child of my own-but I think everyone should back off unless you are free of "sin" your self. If you have no secrets of your own, then by all means JUDGE ON!
Thanks!
1-23-2009 @ 1:03PM
Liz said...This is a sad subject. How could you not love the one you birthed? I lost my baby. She is no longer here on this earth and I would do anything just to hold her in my arms. You are a sick person. I feel sorry for this child. I just hope she finds the love she needs.
1-23-2009 @ 12:38PM
Kelly said...This is crazy. There is something SERIOUSLY wrong with this woman. Her love for child is conditional upon her being in a relationship with the child's father.?!?!?! This woman is going to ruin this child. Someone needs to step in and show this child that there is love out there....Anyone with a child knows that this woman is sick....
1-23-2009 @ 1:13PM
mommyof220 said...How can this woman be so mean? Not only is she saying she doesn't love her daughter but to admit she loves her other daughter more is insane. I feel awful for this little girl! I had my daughter at 19 and shes almost 2. I just had my son 4 months ago and i couldnt love either one of them more. They are my life.I had them young but I choose it and i wouldnt change it for the world. . Their father and I are happily married but hes in the Army and deployed to Iraq right now. I do everything with no help. My hubby is always gone and he joined the army to take care of our family but i dont blame my kids for him being gone.This woman should just give her daughter to someone who would love her like she should be loved. It sounds like she blames her daughter for the failed relationship with her daughters father. She needs counseling and to have these children taken from her!!!
1-23-2009 @ 12:45PM
hooliganmom said...WHY THE HELL IS THIS STORY ON THE INTERNET?!? Does this mean that this horrid mother got money for her sick and twisted story? I have 2 sons of my own, from different fathers and a step-son and I could never dream of looking at any of them with the same contempt that this wretched woman has for her own child. If grandma gets called in when this little girl is sick than is it not clear to the family that something is wrong? Some body needs to step in before another tragic news story comes out of this.I really hope that social services in her town gets ahold of this article. This little girl deserves more than this... I would gladly take her into my home as well and love her and cherish her the way she deserves.
1-23-2009 @ 12:58PM
Stacy said...This story makes my heart break for this little girl. As a mother we are here to protect our children from any harm that may come their way. Your daughter does not deserve this treatment and should be removed from you home. Children are a gift from God and deserve to be treated that way. How would you feel if your mom or dad reminded you everyday that you were not loved or wanted? I hope and pray that someone reads this and takes action. You do not deserve to have children. There are lots of people out there that would love to have a child and could take her and give her the life she should have.
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF.
1-23-2009 @ 1:07PM
Laura Welsh Kennedy said...she is a total piece of work. I could see if you just don't possess the "maternal instinct" but then to have it for the other child is pure evil. I think this woman should be going to a psychologist not telling her story to the world. she sucks!
1-23-2009 @ 1:21PM
Jocelyn said...I totally agree. I dont know how you can not love your own child. Why did she get pregnant? Why didnt she ever give the child up forbadoption to someone that can treat her better. I can't imagine how heartbroken that little girl is going to feel if she ever reads this. I am not a mother myself yet but i just dont understand how you can not love your own kid.
1-23-2009 @ 4:11PM
maq4 said...I believe that the lady in this article or anybody who is struggling with these feelings has a huge missunderstanding of what love is. Love is not a feeling or feelings, though feelings can accompy love. Love is to intentionaly act upon someone with goodness. It is to give or say or treat another person with what is best for them. And if it is to be love then it is must be done regardless of what they do for you or give to you. Love has no conditions. If anyone struggles to love, they are just being selfish and only thinking about what they get out of it. We can love people (husband, wife, children, friend, enemy...) even if we don't "feel" like it. I had to learn this the hard way.
1-23-2009 @ 1:46PM
peter said...now that sucks for the kid, but it happens.Not sure why she would apologize to this kid every night..just work on it and leave it at that.what she wants the kid to tell her it's ok or something?screw that she is the parent she had the kid she needs to just take responsibility for that and just mother up to the kid.i am around a kid i dont particularly love...hell have the time she pisses me off, but that's kids....and she needs things...so i give her what she needs for this life...i dont fond all over her for her every move, but i respect and treat her nicely.yup the minimum what's wrong with atleast doing that....this story is kinda strange, but kudos for saying something...alot of people just fake it and not well i must add, just so they dont have to deal with the embaressment or peoples comments.maybe if it was ok to tell people more stacey anthony would be here....
1-23-2009 @ 3:09PM
Riddle said...My thoughts some things are better left unpublic. What if this poor little girl kills herself because now the whole world knows her own mother doesn't love her.... If the mother wanted to share it, join a freking support group. You NEVER tell your chidren they are not wanted ot not loved. I had my first son when I was 19 he is now 13. I am a strickt drill sergent like mother, but I still love my children. I may not be the most expressive mother, but my children feel VERY loved. This mother needs to get Psychological help, pefhaps the daughter should go live with her father, maybe he will love to have her....
1-23-2009 @ 1:43PM
kathy said...OMG! THIS POOR CHILD SHOULD BE TAKEN AWAY AND PLACED IN A LOVING HOME. THERE ARE TOO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT WOULD SHOW HER LOVE. MAKES YOU WONDER IF SHE IS ALSO BEING ABUSED IN OTHER WAYS BECAUSE YES THIS IS ABUSE. SHE SHOULD DO THE RIGHT THING AND GIVE THAT CHILD UP.....SHE SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS WHEN SHE WAS A BABY . AND I WONDER IF THE NEW BABY'S DAD LEAVES WILL SHE TREAT HIM/HER THE SAME WAY . I HAVE SEEN ALLEY CATS BE BETTER MOTHERS!
1-23-2009 @ 1:54PM
Laughkc said...What people need to understand is that not all women's maternal instincts kick in the moment they give birth to a child, and some women simply don't have the ability to nurture. Whoever said this little girl is being "abused" is wrong. The mother makes sure that her daughters needs are met, if not by her, then by others who also care for the girl. I can say, personally, I did not care for children. Then I had my 1st at 20, and fell head over heels in love. His father and I split before my son even turned 1, but he motivated me to be the best role model and mother I could possibly be. We cannot blame the women for her illness. I just hope there is someone in that little girls life who loves her the way a child should be loved... Grandmother, Aunt, Cousin... someone. And hopefully this little girl eventually realizes that her mothers behavior is the result of illness.
1-23-2009 @ 2:08PM
Janette said...I can relate to the child because I have lived it!!! It is so sad to be in this child's place. I have been there for 50 years now and I know the devasting effect it has on a child's self-esteem and happiness. My dad married my step-mother when I was 4 and she is the only mother I have known and had contact with. My birth mother was a forbidden subject. I had three full brothers also by his first marriage that were dad's boys, and my step-mother had her own two daughters one by a previous marriage and one by my father (they call her "the love child"). The difference from how I was raised as compared to my half and step sister is night and day (my cousins used to call me Cinderella). I saw it so completely every day and it hurt so so so bad. I never felt my mothers hand but to strike me. It was tough because all I ever wanted to to do was have her love. I was the only kid in the family who never rebelled and I worked like her slave, never to win her over. Now that I'm grown and have a family of my own it's been a long healing process (but a very spiritual one).Seeing my parents now I have to look at them as different parents to me then the ones I see them being to my siblings. I gave up hope of being anything but the lowest rung on the family totem pole a long time ago. The hardest time for me to accept what my life was, was when I had my own children. I saw how easy it was to love a child and not hurt them physically etc. Up until that time I sort of blamed myself that if I was only this or that maybe she would love me. I've been blessed to have married into a wonderful family and now my young adult children whom I love so completely are very close to my husband and I. My prayers go out to Catherine. Growing up unloved by your parent is a very fearful state that a little child lives in. Trust me been there done that!!! I pray that Catherine will find as I, people in her life that act as other Mothers and help her feel loved and cared about. I'm so thankful for these wonderful people in my life.
1-24-2009 @ 7:10PM
KB said...Well obviously this woman is mentally ill. Catherine needs to go live with Grandma. Shelley needs some good strong nut pills.
1-23-2009 @ 3:06PM
measiam said...I can relate, but I relate w/ the daughter. I'm almost 50 years old and still feel the pain that my own mother inflicted on me w/ her inability to love. This child is going to be severally damaged, especially when there is another "worth while to love" child in the household. The child would be better off if her mother were dead. The good thing is that my own children know I love them and would go to the ends of the earth for them. Not only would I do it, they KNOW I would.