Mother Admits She Doesn't Love Her Daughter
Filed under: Just For Moms, Health & Safety: Babies, Playground Bureau
Shelley Price doesn't love her own daughter, and fears she never will. This tearful mother of two is telling her story because she believes that she isn't the only mother to ever tackle such a taboo subject, and hopes she may help others come to terms with this unspeakable truth. How can this be?
(Update: The story that originally ran on dailymail.co.uk on January 22, 2009 was pulled off the site the following day. Read on and you'll see why.)
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Price was just 22 when she had her eldest daughter, Catherine, now 11. Shortly after Catherine's birth, a five-year relationship with the father fizzled. That didn't help matters.
"It was obvious that something wasn't right from the start," said Price. The night Catherine was born, Price says she didn't want to look or touch her. Her maternal malfeasance continues to this day. Playgroup pickup was something to dread, she recalls no landmarks such as a first tooth and when Catherine is sick, Grandma is called in. She admits to ignoring her daughter's attempts to get her attention and not wanting to be physically close to her. "I did hug Catherine, but it was always half-hearted," Price said. "I always told her I loved her but I never really felt it or meant it."
That is just awful. Particulary when there is another child in the house now, Poppy, 2, a daughter who she calls "the love of my life" by her current partner.
I can understand how at times we might not like our children, say, when they break stuff or hit their sister. But that doesn't mean we don't love them. Also, many new moms, myself included, feel overwhelmed with the responsibility of a new baby. Coupled with the baby blues or postpartum depression, it's often very hard to bond.
I have a friend who admitted to me she wasn't immediately bowled over by her son when she first had him. Many moms go through that. But as time went on, she grew to love her son more than life itself. That's how you should feel when you have a child, right? Isn't loving our children -- whether it's at first sight or through time -- part of what makes us human?
Psychologists say that a mother's failure to love her child can result from depression, feelings of inadequacy or when the child reminds her of a bad relationship (i.e., the co-parent). Price fits neatly here, although she says not so.
On the plus side, if there is one, Price recognizes her shortcomings and is trying hard to improve her relationship with her older daughter. "Sometimes, if I've been playing with Poppy, she'll come and sit next to me, put her head on my shoulder and her arm round me, waiting for me to cuddle her," she said. "I look at her little face and know I've hurt her. I do care deeply for Catherine, but I have just never felt the same bond with her."
Instead of a good night kiss and "I love you, honey," Catherine hears a nightly whisper in her ear. "I'm sorry for the way I've been with you." Isn't your heart breaking?
Can you relate to Price? Do you feel like you don't love your children enough, or at all?
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ReaderComments (Page 1 of 62)
1-22-2009 @ 7:23PM
CLM said...And her daughter is going to feel so much better now that her mom has chosen to splash this lovely bit of info into the public sphere.
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1-23-2009 @ 7:56AM
You got to be kidding me said...Your comments absolutely cracked me up--I thought about that too....by all means, put it in writing so she can have that reassurance growing up her whole life!!
1-23-2009 @ 7:43AM
miamskipwith said...NO!!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!!!! I CAN NOT RELATE!!!!! There is SOMETHING SERIOUSLY WRONG here....What's even more heartbreaking and literally has me in tears, is the little girl who is the subject of this article. I would KILL someone when it comes to my two children, and I LITERALLY MEAN THAT! I love children period. Whether they are mine or not. Don't care for adults to much, but I love children. When I do for mine, if they have a friend visiting or something, I do the same for the friend. Children can never regain those years. If you mess them up now, you mess them up for life. WE ALL NEED TO PRAY for this mother and for CATHERINE. God PLEASE heal this relationship and the issues.
1-23-2009 @ 8:02AM
suzy in sc said...My thoughts exactly!
1-23-2009 @ 8:13AM
chuchy said...I'll take her and love her.
1-23-2009 @ 8:17AM
tamara said...I hope someone reads this and decides for the best interest of the child to take her away from that evil enviroment. I cannot believe a grandparent/father is not aware of the situation, well now they should know. But how wrong is that to whisper in her ear. Get that child into a loving home now, this has gone on way too long, simply cannot believe she had another child!!!!! unbelievable.
SELFISH is all i can say
1-23-2009 @ 8:21AM
Katie said...How terrible for the child! I was 22 when my daughter, who is now 11, was born. I could not stand the thought of being away from her. My marriage to her father failed when she was 4. I did not blame her. I blamed my ex-husband, My daughter is a wonderful and precious gift and any mother who feels differently about their child should find someone to take care of the child who will give it the love and adoration all children deserve. If I knew how to get in touch with that mother, I would tell her that I would gladly take her daughter and raise her as my own. My daughter would LOVE to have a sister and my family always has room for one more.
1-23-2009 @ 9:47AM
Kristy said...There is no way in H*** that I can relate to how this woman feels about her daughter! I can however relate to how the daughter feels because I am the oldest daughter in my family and my mother treats me the exact same way and I find myself over-compensating to my own daughter so that she will never feel that way! I find it absolutley amazing that people need a license to drive a car but not to have children! I have a daughter who turned six yesterday and I had her when I was 23 years old and there has never been a moment in her life that I didn't feel overwhelemed by the love I have for her even though I didn't love her father and we split up when Kayson was about 18 months old. This woman should feel horrible about herself! I truly mean that and although it seems harsh, I hope that what she is doing to that poor little girl haunts her for the rest of her life! That behavior digusts me!
1-23-2009 @ 8:43AM
B said...I'll take her and love her too! The poor, sweet, innocent child.
1-23-2009 @ 8:50AM
Deanna said...Why are actual names used in this article? How can this be in the best interest of this CHILD? Since when is irresponsible parenting new? It's not a new "taboo" subject it's an ugly old problem called CHILD ABUSE. Here's the simple answer to this "dilema" 1. Admitting you are, at best, a terrible, abusive parent doesn't absolve you of the crime (and I believe your behavior toward your child is crimminal) you should be punished as the child abuser that you are. 2. Your daughter should be removed from your home. She did not ask to be born nor should she have to beg for the love she deserves.
If you had true remorse for your inadequecies as a parent you would arrange for your child to live with her Grandmother while you get help. But I believe this public humiliation gives you great pleasure and feeds your desire to continually hurt this CHILD. You and everyone involved in printing this article should be punished for child abuse. I have no compassion for your "dilema". Valiant women in your situation,realizing their own short comings, have chosen adoption over life long abuse and public humiliation. Your motivation for coming forward with this "new information" illuminates your inability to PARENT. If embarassment of your behavior and a desire to change were the motivating factor, you would have demanded that your actual names not be used, and the publishers would have reconized your choice as an attempt to protect this little girl. You are all cupable, and should be PUNISHED for the damage you all have a hand in inflicting on this child.
1-23-2009 @ 9:08AM
GLORIA said...SOMETHING MORE HAD TO HAPPEN FOR THIS WOMAN TO FEEL THAT WAY.
I KNOW SOME ONE WHO'S BABY WAS ABDUCTED BY THE FATHER, WENT TO ANOTHER COUNTRY AND 6 YEARS LATER DROPS HER OFF AS NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.
THIS PERSON I KNOW HAD A REAL ROUGH TIME ACCEPTING THIS LITTLE GIRL AND LOVING HER, BUT SHE DID AND DIDN'T LET HER OUT OF HER SIGHT, AND WHEN IT WAS TIME TO LET HER GO CAUSE SHE GREW UP SHE DID ALWAY'S WITH A WATCHFUL EYE, AND WAS THERE WHEN SHE NEEDED HER.
1-23-2009 @ 8:59AM
Elonna Bemis said...I think think person is selfish. Calling the youngest child the love of her life and putting it out to the public for her 11 year old to have it rubbed in her face even more? That's just unforgivable and humiliating for the daughter.
As for the Mom, I am sure you confuse sex with love and you must suffer low self esteem. Your daughter will NEVER forget this and I hope and pray that she has enough self confidence and she gets unconditional love from her grandparents that she won't repeat the cycle when she has children.
You don't deserve the second child, you should have just gotten yourself sterilized and not reproduced.
1-23-2009 @ 9:31AM
Kim said...YEah I am kind of sickened by this article! That poor child... Children have so many obstacles in their life in a normal setting, can you imagine how this child must feel knowing her mother doesn't love her and on top of it How will she ever learn to love herself when she has none in her life! What a horrible woman this is!
1-23-2009 @ 9:05AM
Cortney said...It seems to me as though once she came to terms with the idea of not loving her daughter, then she felt it was ok to completely abandon her as a mother. I won't mention the coincidental circumstance that she left her unloved daughters father and is now with her other daughter's father and so considers that child the love of her life. (You can't love your children based on what the other parent does right or wrong!) This woman needs psychiatric help as do others who relate to this story. And I say that with concern, not with judgment. Something is seriously, seriously wrong.
1-24-2009 @ 11:37AM
Gretchen said...I have had 3 children. My first one was my son whom I loved more than life itself. I lost him when he was 61/2. I had my 2nd 21/2 yrs after my son and at that time I knew I was leaving my husband because of abuse. I knew that I was not ready ar financially able for another baby. I got pills from my doctor to bring my period. Well when I got home and told my husband what I was going to do he flushed them down the toilet. Well I ended up leaving him 2 months later and had the baby. I could not bond with her at all and I know and knew then that it was not her fault. I couldn't help the way I felt. I wanted to love her but I just never really have.She is 33 now and has alot of issues. (her father never had anything to do with her untilshe ws 21, when I laeft to move to Florida) I have tried to be close to her but I just can't. I feel like the worst mother in the world.
1-23-2009 @ 9:19AM
Roxy Karnes said...I agree. She didn't have to go public. She should have got help early on and possibly turned it around. Or give the child to someone who could love her. They both need counseling.
1-23-2009 @ 9:39AM
Carrie said...Shame on anyone for even publishing this garbage this woman is disgusting
1-23-2009 @ 9:40AM
Amber said...That is awful! It kills me that people like this are having children everyday and someone like me who adores children cannot have them. I would love to take this little girl into my home and show her what a real family is.
1-23-2009 @ 9:42AM
KARIN said...I totally agree with all of you. We know this woman is sick. Her poor little girl is going to be effected by this for the rest of her life. Even if she goes to live with her grandparent's. Imagine your mom pawning you off to your grandparents because she doesn't love you ! I have two children and my daughter happens to be 11. I find love, joy and happiness with her every breath. I would die for my kids! My daughter would love to have a sister! Maybe I'll adopt this little girl! Get help you sick, twisted person!
1-23-2009 @ 10:14AM
La Tanya Brown said...You are so right. I know that motherhood is a different experience for every woman. But here is my problem with this paritcular mother. Catherine is going to grow up always seeking the attention and love she never got at home, which will lead to bad relationships and low self esteem. If this mom cannot see fit to love her child, then give her to someone who will. There are plenty of people out here who will and can give this child the love she so deserves. This child did not ask to come into this world and since she is here, it is up to the parents to make sure she has the best life and opportunities as possible. I am sorry, but I am very angry at this mother for her lack of respect for the beautiful gift she has been given, not once, but twice. And does she think that as the second grows up that things are going to be better. No, they are not. She is creating an unneccessary resentment between these two siblings. This mother needs help, but most of all, little Catherine needs love!