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Mika Brzezinski shares her struggles with balancing a demanding career and motherhood. Credit: Brian Nice.
Working the night shift, back in the 1990s when she was with CBS news, Brzezinski would return home in the late mornings, relieve her babysitter and try to raise her two young kids on little to no sleep, and didn't stop to prioritize her life until she took a tragic fall down a flight of stairs -- while holding her four-month old baby.
Now, her two daughters are 11 and 13 years old, and Brzezinski's had time to reflect back on motherhood, jotting down her cautionary tale in her debut book "All Things at Once."
ParentDish spoke with the busy news anchor, via telephone, about the lowest moment in life and not always being a good mom.
ParentDish: Your book is about some of the mistakes you made early on in parenthood. What was your biggest mistake?
Mika Brzezinski: Not admitting that I can't do it all and that I need help at times. And not realizing that even my children need to be put on the back burner sometimes in order to get through the workday. When I was younger, I tried to be supermom, superwife and superworker. But I had a job that challenged my sleep -- working all night from 9 p.m. to 5 a.m. -- and I didn't recognize that there were times when I couldn't be all things to all people. As a result, I had a terrible accident with my infant daughter.
PD: Was that when you fell down the stairs?
MB: Yes. And, to this day, I blame myself for that. I can't blame my job for being too hard; I can't blame my baby for keeping me up at night; I can't blame anyone but myself for trying to do too much.
PD: What exactly happened?
MB: I had worked all week on the night shift, like I did every week. It was a lot, plus trying to raise a toddler and a newborn, and trying to keep great relations with my husband. It started to build on me and I stopped sleeping -- even if I took sleeping medicine I couldn't sleep. I was too nerved up, my body was out of whack, I was breast-feeding, I was emotional and I think I had postpartum depression. I kept trying to make everyone happy. That day, I came home from work and I tried to sleep but couldn't so I decided to let the babysitter go home early. I picked up the baby and I was talking 100 miles an hour. I walked right off the top of the stairs. We landed at the bottom with me on top of her.
PD: Do you remember what was going through your mind as you were falling?
MB: It was a horrific moment. I just knew that something really bad was happening. It was like being in a very bad car accident and knowing that you weren't going to get out of it okay. I knew I had hurt her and I knew it was bad.
PD: What'd you do when you finally landed?
MB: I scooped her up. I looked at her and she wasn't crying, which I knew was a very bad sign. I rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't find anything wrong with her. I kept telling them I thought I hurt her head or broke her neck. I was so focused on her head that they gave her an MRI but they found nothing wrong and sent me home. The doctors said she was okay but I knew in my heart she wasn't. I called my husband who told me to call the pediatrician. The doctor told me to put her on the bed and he walked me through an exam. On the phone with him I got this chill throughout my body and I realized she wasn't moving. He said to get back to the hospital and he'd call to let them know I was coming. I rushed back to the ER and they weren't ready for me. They told me to sit down but I explained to this guy that I was just there and that my baby was in really bad shape. He gave me papers and told me to take a seat. That's when I completely lost it; I grabbed the guy by his neck and I shoved him against the wall and I said, "You better f*****g understand what I have to say right now, this baby needs to get in the x-ray right now. And if you don't put her in, I'm going to kill you."
PD: That's what any mother would do!
MB: The staff rushed around us and started to wonder if I should be tranquillized. I was shaking from head to toe. They put the baby on the table and realized she wasn't moving. Then they started considering the fact that she might have spinal cord damage. They were poking her with needles and trying to make her respond. Long story short, it was hours and hours of waiting and people rushing around. I finally got the news that it was just a broken thighbone and she had probably gone into shock from the pain, which explained why she wasn't moving. I had lived this window of time thinking I had paralyzed her. It was the lowest moment of my life.
PD: Was that when you realized you were doing too much?
MB: Absolutely. I wish it didn't take that to get me to that point. My advice to women is to listen to your body and to make it work for yourself. And sometimes that means not being the perfect mom and not being there for your kids every second of the day. If you've got a career that you need to nurture, there are going to be times when you need to transfer your authority to others. I will forever regret that I didn't get help sooner so I could get through that rough patch in my career.
PD: Did you ever think about leaving your job and staying home?
MB: My husband didn't want me to quit that way. He wanted me to leave on my own terms -- not because of an accident. And I still wanted to nurture my career.
PD: So you got help raising the kids?
MB: We got a ton of help and almost went broke paying for childcare. We literally had nothing left at the end of the week. For about a year, I worked like hell on the night shift and worked to get a job that made more sense for everybody. It sorted itself out and I eventually got another job at MSNBC during the day.
PD: During that year, did you do anything to make the little time you had with your kids more special?
MB: No, and stop trying to make me say I was the perfect mom.
PD: Oh, sorry. That's not what I meant.
MB: There were days I had five minutes with them. I'd hug and kiss and love them but then I'd have to go to sleep because I was exhausted. There were days where I was not a very good mom at all. There were days I was not present. But that's reality.
PD: What about your relationship with your husband? How did you keep that going strong?
MB: That was one of the reasons we got into this mess. I was trying to be perfect for everybody. On Fridays, I'd come home, try to sleep, go running, shower, get pretty for him, get the kids ready and be the perfect wife at the door with candles and dinner on the table. He told me to stop and that he didn't need that stuff. We've since grown together and gotten a lot more comfortable working together to get things done.
PD: Now that your kids are older, what do you tell them when you can't make it to watch one of their activities?
MB: I tell them the truth. There are many things that I cannot attend because of my job. I just told my daughter today that I'd make it to her chorus event but I'd be arriving late and I'd be in the very back row. So far they don't complain.
PD: Just to be sure -- your youngest daughter's okay now?
MB: She's great. She's a spunky, smart kid who constantly reminds me that I broke her leg in attempts to get me to buy her stuff.
Brzezinski's book "All Things at Once" comes out on January 5.











ReaderComments (Page 1 of 15)
12-23-2009 @ 4:11PM
bdc said...PD: Now that your kids are older, what do you tell them when you can't make it to watch one of their activities?
MB: I tell them the truth. There are many things that I cannot attend because of my job. I just told my daughter today that I'd make it to her chorus event but I'd be arriving late and I'd be in the very back row. So far they don't complain.
If Mika Brzezinski's kids "complained", would she quit her job or change anything so she could make it to their activities? Based on what she says in the interview ... probably not. So what's the point of an 11 year old and a 13 year old "complaining" that they miss their Mom's presence? Those little girls have no choice in the matter. They are stuck with the priorities and choices their parents are making. My point is that this woman takes comfort in the absence of complaints from her daughters; yet their complaints would probably be of no avail anyway. All the acclaim that comes from being a high profile TV personality will come at great expense to her daughters.
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1-02-2010 @ 6:52AM
John Adelman said...What a shame, the children are hurt by the mother's blinding success. Who is encouraging this behavior, the Network who employs her who knowingly allows her to neglect her children or the buyers of her books who support the behavior commercially?
Where are the fathers? Where is the State? Who is to care for these children when the mother is not available? The children are abandoned by the career and life choices of the mother, I'm guessing the father's are not presant.
What a terrible situation for the children, the most successful women I know are disciplined about their work and make sure that a family member is with young children all the time.
There is no shame in suspending a career until the children have matured to be self sufficient. God bless the children.
1-02-2010 @ 7:13AM
Carol said...I love the way everyone blames the mother. These children had a father, too. No one complains when the father doesn't t spend time with the children. My friend was a stay at home mom and had an accident with her children. It has nothing to do with working/not working. This is just an article to guilt women into thinking, "look what happened to Mika. If she'd have stayed home with her kids, nothing would have happened." It's just backlash against how successful women can be today.
1-02-2010 @ 8:07AM
Loretta said...I remember Mika when she was a reporter based in Hartford CT. To me it sounds like the father didn't take enough responsibilty. And it was up to her to maintain the marriage. BS!!! Parental duties should be divided equally no matter who makes what.
1-02-2010 @ 8:47AM
Loretta said...I remember Mika when she was a reporter based in Hartford CT. One of the nicest person's I've ever known. To me it sounds like the father didn't take enough responsibilty. And it was up to her to maintain the marriage. BS!!! Parental duties should be divided equally no matter who makes what.
1-02-2010 @ 8:38AM
LWC said...I just wanna say that your comments are spot on. It's about choices. I love Mika as an anchor, but perhaps she should have taken some breaks in her career if she wanted to raise children. Because you're honest with your kids when you can't be there for them, doesn't make it any easier on them.
1-02-2010 @ 8:43AM
tom said...What a sad story. Here you have two parents( lets not forget the dad) who could care less about their children. Who instead choose to focus on their careers. And this women talks about it like she is doing something wonderful. How very sad. What is the sense in having children if you are not going to spend time with them and enjoy their childhood.
1-02-2010 @ 9:19AM
Jerry said...Show me a perfect mom. Give me a break. I never cared if my parents came to my games or not. I was too busy playing.
1-03-2010 @ 10:38AM
mary said...The problem with Mika's thinking is the last sentence in the article where she tells her child that she works hard to be able to 'buy her stuff''! I think that her daughter would rather have her mother be a mother than to 'buy her stuff'!
1-02-2010 @ 10:30AM
Marisa said...Wow.... I don't usually reply to these things, but I have tears down my face! I am a mother of three and can easily relate to this article, especially the emotions that musthave ran through your body that night. I send my best to you and your family.
1-02-2010 @ 11:05AM
Judy said...Since I am a working mom who raised 3 kids I can say this. Sounds like she is making excuses for being so selfish but that is her choice.....
First of all most of us are broke at the end of each payday. Welcome to the real world. Especially if you have to pay a babysitter.
It doesn't seem like she changed much from the lesson. It was still about being driven to "nurture" her career.
Missing her kids activities ? Okay to do once in a while but that will come back to bite her in the behind.
No way would I buy her book. No way........She is way too Type A.
I wish her well.........
1-02-2010 @ 11:13AM
Fran said...Now, just how do you know that? I was forced to raise 2 small kids alone during the first Reagan/Bush Regime.Childcare was a nightmare & when my firstborn got old enough, (12) I ditched Babysitters altogether. Before you crucify me for that decision, let me tell you that I cannot convey how many times I'd come to pick up the kids & they'd either be doing Pot or youcould smell it. Worse was when they'd be buzzed on nose candy. But it was the early to mid 80s & next to impossible to find people who didn't partake. I did do this, though. When it looked like the kids were getting strung out, I'd adjust my work. MBs kids haven't shown strain. If they did I 'm sure she would renegotiate contracts to adjust. In my case Professional Nursing (RN) allowed for that & only once did I have to actually quit a job which I would not've done had I a Husband. Therein lies point #2. MB does have a Husband & her kids are not in want of Parental/Familial love/ support. So lay off! It was during the first Reagan.Bush Regime when the advent of the Yuppie & the Era of Child Worship came about thus producing the advent of the "SuperMom". And despite this Mom's attempt to bring sanity to young Mothers, by the tone of alot of posts following yours, you are all still stuck in the very trap & the very mindset that caused the could've been fatal accident that was brought by a serious case of child worship/peer pressure/ & (worse) severe sleep deprivation. Don't believe me? Read up on sleep deprivation. Then come back. You won't be pointing fingers.
1-02-2010 @ 11:19AM
deb said...I have to say I find this mother's comments honest and poignant.
She is telling the truth and she is not pretending to her kids that life is always great and easy. When you have a career there are many days your children have to wait. That isn't such a bad thing. The bad thing is when the parent tries to pretend or give the kids so many material things to make up for it. when you have a career ...not just a job...you are making a choice to make you and your children's lives better. This is America and that is how it works. This mother isn't ignoring her children or neglecting them. She is teaching them to be independent and strong and she is teaching them that everything has a price.
I know women who never want to leave their kids..taking in boyfriends and giving in to boredom and independence...all of our choices..all of them..come with consequences.
1-02-2010 @ 12:22PM
Tabby said...I agree with this, believe it or not deep down inside when parents are not around for something great in a childs eyes it really lets them down..... I hope she stops and thinks about what she is doing her girls are about to be teenagers the years that little girls need there mothers the most..... to me the most important thing in life is my child not everything else.... Yes as a parent we need to be happy but you cant put your kid on the (back burner)......
1-02-2010 @ 12:19PM
aj happy mom said...Kudos to Mika!
I have raised 3 children who are now 20,21 and 24. I missed many dance recitals, sporting events and school field trips when I had to travel or when a show I was involved in was in production. My kids learned to be self-motivated and self reliant and that has served them quite well as young adults.
They know that love means taking care of YOURSELF and taking care of OTHERS. Parents should not be martyrs. As I told my daughter when she complained about my inability to be the room parent for her second grade class; "I want you to have happy mommy and I am doing the best I can."
1-02-2010 @ 12:22PM
Ginger K said...Why even have kids if you're not going to raise them? Just don't have them. It's very simple and I highly recommend it.
1-02-2010 @ 1:26PM
SapphireRed said...I hope Mika you have learned your lesson. I am a mother similar like you were.. I have a son whom I have loved and nuture as a single mom, and I was always trying to be there , as well as have two girsl who I have at home still now , although they are grown all my children. I remember walking into my supervisor office one evening working as a surgery tech and letting her know I had to quit. I knew something had been going wrong with them, later found out they finally told me that they had been being abused at their sitters home. Although, I later told the agency I fail short or wanting them to know their names for some reason. Later seen them at the shopping mall and still could not come to confront them both. Anyway my son dispies me becasue he felt that he was abused by a family member which I found out 50 years after and we have had a stormy relationship since he brought me to work for him 3 years ago where I now live. So, although I had to do some collateral damage cleanup with him while he stayed with me-like putting him out.. we are not speaking because of his manners, which my daguhters told me I should not tolerate he showed me disrepect. I have gotten over some what what he did, although he has moved away I have tried to talk to him via internet..he has never responded. I have a broken heart as a Mom, but like you I stood up and tolerated no more malice in my life with my job and trying to be the supermom, that is me! My mom left me when I was 13yrs old and it hurt me rather bad, but I had vow to myself I would never be unfriendly , not caring to my children , but I know now that nice girls do not change the world.. This is acutally a title of a book and it is written by Lynne Hybels -you should get it! God's Blessing for you and your family for the New Year! SapphireRED
1-02-2010 @ 1:59PM
Quincy said...All I can say is that this was a good and timely article.
1-02-2010 @ 7:49PM
Elaine said...Who would want to read a book about a woman that is selfish and self centered? Why did she have children? I wish I would have never seen this article it is sick!
1-02-2010 @ 1:41PM
Sandra said...I am sure this was a very painful and difficult place to be with your family. I must say that on a daily basis I work with families who make some very difficult choices for the survival of their families. These families don't have nannies or childcare. However, The Child Welfare System is not so kind to these families. If it was a mother of the lower socioeconomic status, the accident would not have been treated as such but the mother would have been labled neglectful and irresponsible and not fit to care for her child. I am glad that your family was able to overcome, and remain strong throuhgout this process.