Male Anorexia: One Boy's Story
Filed under: Behavior, Nutrition: Tweens, Nutrition: Teens
Eric Ostendorf, left, at age 10, pre-anorexia; Ostendorf, center, at age 15 with full-blown anorexia; Ostendorf at age 17, a recovered anorexic. Courtesy of Becky Ostendorf
Every day, for the first four months of his sophomore year in high school, Eric Ostendorf ate an apple for lunch.
That's it. One apple. And sometimes he didn't even make it to the core.
The summer before, Ostendorf's pediatrician discovered an alarmingly low heart rate during a routine physical and sent the Kentucky teen straight to the hospital. At 15, he was at serious risk for a heart attack.
Ostendorf, now a 17-year-old high school senior, had been starving himself for months while engaging in obsessive-compulsive exercise regimens, he tells ParentDish in a phone interview.
After spending a week in the hospital with feeding tubes down his throat, Ostendorf was released on doctor's orders that his parents closely monitor his eating and with a strict embargo on exercise. However, as many anorexics have proved, there are ways around such restrictions.
"I would wake up a few minutes early, run the shower and then pump out about a hundred push-ups, do some crunches and then get in the shower, get dressed, come downstairs, hide the food (by tossing it down the back of his big sweatshirt when no one was looking), then flush it (down the toilet) when I was going up to brush my teeth," Ostendorf tells ParentDish. "And then I'd pump out some more push-ups."
Unlike anorexic girls his age who focus on whittling their waists to unattainably small sizes, Ostendorf says his focus was on building muscle mass.
"You rarely hear from guys about clothes size. The majority of guys I've treated with anorexia say to me, with a straight face, 'I will gain as much weight as you want me to gain, as long as it's muscle,' " Dr. Ted Weltzein, medical director of eating disorder services at Rogers Memorial Hospital in Wisconsin (where Ostendorf would eventually spend 100 days for inpatient treatment), tells ParentDish in a phone interview.
When he got to school, Ostendorf says, he would ask his teacher if he could use the restroom and then he would "crank out 45 chin-ups on the bar of the bathroom stalls."
He did that every class period, every day, for four months straight. He'd often miss his ride home at the end of the day because he was busy walking laps around the halls with his heavy backpack and doing chin-ups in the boys' bathroom. When he got home and found his mother helping his younger brother with homework, he'd sneak off to do push-ups, crunches, squats and calf raises. Ostendorf wanted biceps that bulged and abs he could bounce quarters off.
His mother, Becky Ostendorf, arranged to have the vice principal casually walk by his table in the cafeteria and discreetly peer into his lunch bag, which he was required to leave open on the table.
It was always empty, save for the remainder of his apple. Yet, his mother packed him a full lunch and neither she nor the principal knew he never ate it.
"I would stop at my locker to get my lunch like I was supposed to, and then I would make a beeline for the bathroom and, if no one was in there, I'd flush (the food) down the toilet. ... All I would have left is an apple because you can't flush an apple down the toilet," he tells ParentDish.
Ostendorf's parents decided to appear on a "Dr. Phil" episode titled "Body Obsessed Boys," which aired Jan. 8, 2009. Becky Ostendorf tells ParentDish in a phone interview that their health insurance had run out, "so I very selfishly said, 'We're doing this show because maybe we'll get some help that's paid for.' I hate to admit that, but that was the point I was at."
"Dr. Phil called me an enabler on national TV," she says. "(Eric's eating disorder) totally consumed our lives day in and day out. It was like nothing else mattered."
Weltzein also appeared on the show and offered Ostendorf a full evaluation and treatment at the eating disorder facility at Rogers, known for its rare all-male unit.
According to the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA), about 10 percent of people with eating disorders are male. However, they are less likely to seek treatment because of the perception that they are "women's diseases."
"Our uniqueness," Weltzein says, "is that the males are with the males, not with the females. The staff is used to working with the males, which is different. (There's) a lot more 'Guitar Hero' on the male floor."
Ostendorf's birthday was on the 70th day of his 100 days in treatment at Rogers. He shared this journal entry, which was part of the treatment process, from that day:
March 9, 2009
Today's my 16th birthday. I'm not home, I'm not at school; I'm at a mental hospital. I'm not going to get my temporary driving license today. I'm going to group therapy. To me it's just a normal day in the fight against my eating disorder. This is a great reason to get pissed at my eating disorder. MY ED (Eating Disorder) took my 16th birthday away from me.
Because of him, I'm seven hours away from home right now, away from my family and friends. All of this is motivation. I'm going to kick his butt. I'm going to get my life back. He is no longer going to control me. Starting today, he will no longer make me feel like a piece of crap. No longer will he suppress my personality. No longer will he hinder my confidence. No longer will he make me lie.
I neither want nor need him. As far as I'm concerned he can go #%@& himself. Eric is back and here to stay.
Today's my 16th birthday. I'm not home, I'm not at school; I'm at a mental hospital. I'm not going to get my temporary driving license today. I'm going to group therapy. To me it's just a normal day in the fight against my eating disorder. This is a great reason to get pissed at my eating disorder. MY ED (Eating Disorder) took my 16th birthday away from me.
Because of him, I'm seven hours away from home right now, away from my family and friends. All of this is motivation. I'm going to kick his butt. I'm going to get my life back. He is no longer going to control me. Starting today, he will no longer make me feel like a piece of crap. No longer will he suppress my personality. No longer will he hinder my confidence. No longer will he make me lie.
I neither want nor need him. As far as I'm concerned he can go #%@& himself. Eric is back and here to stay.
Ostendorf is now in full recovery. He hopes to study pre-med at college next year so he can help kids with eating disorders.










ReaderComments (Page 1 of 5)
1-04-2011 @ 6:55AM
laura said...Anorexics are addicts who need support from professionals, just like all other addicts. I'm glad to see that Eric is getting the help he needs. He looks so much better as a healthy 17 year old.
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1-04-2011 @ 7:40AM
JerryC said...It concerns me that in the last, "recovered" picture, he's wearing a loose, long sleeve shirt that seems designed to hide an anerexic body. Did he recover, or just learn to hide it a little better? I notice the article doesn't actually say how much the young man weighs today. I hope he continues to submit to weight and body fat monitoring. Anerexia is a recurring disease.
1-04-2011 @ 12:36PM
Nancy said...If you look at his face in the middle and right pictures you can see that he's not as thin as he used to be.
1-04-2011 @ 7:11PM
monkey face said...sorry laura to intrude on your post.. isn't life great,, I am so proud of him and don't know him...everyone judgeing him,, I thought he looked ok in the red shirt,, center pic,,show six pack,, water pic like a happy kid...my sister had/has a ED and I found out,,, I know I never made her feel as if I was judgeing her,, I am so lucky to have her in my life and there have been improvements, comend him and not judge,, it's his life and with susportive family that he has he's going be just fine.
1-04-2011 @ 6:58AM
4tw34 said...And with it usually is a past of being sexually abused
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1-04-2011 @ 8:05AM
Kenny Nash said...Please do share why everything has to go back to sexual abuse?
1-04-2011 @ 8:29AM
Shayna said...Kenny Nash- Possibly not sexual abuse, but something else that was tramuatic for him. When a person is forced through tramua, their mind tries to protect itself through a number of ways. People who go through tramua sometimes get mental disorders as a result of the stress tramua caused them, such as anerexia. But each case is unique and different as is the tramua behind it. Tramua can spark addictions too, like anerexia. Also many people who suffer from food addictions (anerexia) have been shown to have sexual abuse in their past. Hope this answered your question.
1-04-2011 @ 11:53AM
Chrissy D. said...I'm a graduate student working toward my M.A. in clinical psychology. I have been doing research on CSA (child sexual abuse) for about 4 years now and plan to continue this work when I get into a doctoral program. It's usually not one cause and effect that contributes to any disorder. There is usually a hereditary propensity toward a disorder, traumatic events, and the ways in which the events are worked through (coping strategies). Although there is evidence that CSA and EDs (eating disorders) can be related, it does not mean that CSA yields an ED. EDs are generally thought to be the result of an obsessive-compulsive/anxiety/control issue/body image issue so there are several possible reasons for the ED to manifest.
I'm glad this story was posted because male anorexia is becoming more common and perhaps this can help males out there who are suffering through an ED. He looks a lot better in the most recent picture so I hope he is doing well. I also commend him for wanting to help other males who have EDs. It seems like he has gotten much stronger as a result of undergoing treatment. Congrats, Eric and good luck!
1-04-2011 @ 12:06PM
Melissa said...I suffered from anorexia all through out my teenage years. Never once have I been sexually abused.
1-04-2011 @ 1:06PM
Jo said...Not necessarily any abuse at all. The person usually has a control issue. They cannot stand having someone else in control of the rest of their lives, such as school, chores, and other expectations, so they have this part of their life that they have complete control of.
1-04-2011 @ 2:16PM
lalala said...behind every eating disorder there is an issuse. but the majority are not sexually abused. frankly you should get your facts straight.
1-04-2011 @ 2:32PM
Marissa said...Very false. I'm a recovering anorexic myself. I was NEVER abused. I used my eating disorder as a COPING mechanism after a traumatic experience. Please don't draw conclusions as not all people with eating disorders were abused. Get your facts straight before you speak.
5-07-2012 @ 6:38PM
kima5489 said...You don't necessarily have to be abused. For me it just took the wrong comment at the wrong time. Puberty was very stressful on me and I never let it show. I stopped eating breakfast and lunch. I rarely ate dinner. I eventually grew out of it but it's almost ten years later and I still feel like I'm fighting the same battle.
1-04-2011 @ 7:17AM
modine said...My son had the other side of this disease. He ate protein almost constantly, took steroids and lifted weights compulsively. Just as sick; just as sad. Maybe more dangerous because he could have hurt someone else in a steroid rage.
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1-04-2011 @ 7:49AM
Natalie said...Good luck to that young man. I am sure someone told him that one MUST have good nutritional intake to build muscles or to get in shape. I am a woman but I have had the opposite problem with food. I adore it and cannot get enough. Still, for about 30 years I changed my dietary habits. It's now a lifestyle with me. I use Nancy Reagan's phrase that she used for getting people off drug addiction. Addiction was not my problem BUT the love OVER love of food was. So I reversed course one day and for over 30 years my diet has been pristine. I do not think I have cheated even once -- whole grain (emphasize whole) lots of fruits, vegetables and NON meat protein. I eat fish and chicken once a week. The grain quinoa (pronounced keenwah) is one of my big staples. It is a protein/whole grain) using proper recipes for it it is wonderful.
My point is with the RIGHT nutrition, good exercise habits and will power you can make a synapse in your brain where bad food, bad habits just become erased from the connection in your brain.
Good luck to that young man. It sounds like his problem directed him to a very good life! I think he will make a superb physician.
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1-04-2011 @ 7:51AM
natalie said...Nancy Reagan's phrase I forgot to say is "just say no"...i.e. just say no to the bad habits one has. Good nutrition and proper exercise for males especially WILL build muscle. It builds in everyone a healthy, proper weight and a good life. Good luck again!
1-04-2011 @ 9:19AM
Daniela Christina said...@ Natale: Kudos for maintaining a healthier lifestyle for so long.
Almost every addict can't just stop whenever they want to. Anorexia is a disease - NOT a matter of willpower.
1-06-2011 @ 3:07AM
Alicia said...Good to know you've change your life, congrats. However, EDs aren't a love of being thin or loving food too much. People who use food or starvation or purging to cope have a severe psychological issue that needs to be treated as such. When a mind breaks to the point where it will fight instinct and choose starve to death in order to have absolute control over one part of life, trust me, that's bigger than a "just say no" problem. People think anorexia is a vain disorder and on the outside, it looks like it. People diagnosed cite trying to fit in and trying to be pretty as reasons to starve, but I know many people who have suffered from an ED and most, when asked in a moment of quiet and trust, admit that it's a way of having control when they feel the have none.
1-04-2011 @ 7:49AM
Marsha said...My son has never had an adequate 'stop eating' button. He would always eat until he threw up, from babyhood on. As an infant, he'd cry for a bottle after breast feeding. I eventually figured out he was getting 18 ounces a day. He now runs miles every day so he can eat more. Luckily, we have a high metabolism, so he's still thin.
The rest of us have a touch of insatiable food craving, we don't digest our food well. Most of us weighed 90 to 100 lbs in college, even the boys. I would shake if I didn't eat often. Later in life, we gain weight, but it takes a ton of calories. I always thought it was fine, until I figured out it also makes us prone to osteoporosis.
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1-04-2011 @ 7:49AM
Marsha said...Correction, my son was getting 18 oz. of formula every feeding.